YoUr So HeAvY oN mY MiNd

demons away.

2007-03-12T22:21:27Z

I know you're alone
In the dark, all alone
Underneath the covers
Hiding from the demons
That came for your soul.

They might be over in the closet
They might be underneath your bed
They might be just outside your window, baby
Or maybe just inside your head.

But if you let me stay over
I'll try to keep you safe
I've got an army of skeletons
To chase your demons away.

I know that you're scared
You're in the dark, so scared
Simply terrified, no one'll hear you screaming
If they could would they care?

There's only one way to find out
I pray that day never comes
For that would mean the ending of you, baby
The end of you, my love.

But if you let me stay over
I'll try to keep you safe
I've got an army of skeletons
To chase your demons away.

And baby, I can tell you've been crying
Oh baby, I know you've been lying to me
Yes indeed.
Oh baby, I can tell you don't sleep no more
Oh baby, believe me I've been there before.

If you let me stay over
I'll try to keep you safe
I've got an army of skeletons
To chase your demons away.

"Her name is Desiree, have you seen her?"

2006-11-23T01:29:07Z

all of my life, where have you been? i wonder if i'll ever see you again.

2006-11-22T23:40:37Z

i finally got photoshop.

akillerswife @ 2006-11-12T00:45:00

2006-11-12T07:45:49Z

hahahahah

2006-11-11T09:02:17Z

cast some light, it'll be alright.

2006-09-19T09:23:50Z

piepie ready to attack.

Today was not a good day. Today reminded me of why I can't live with my mother. It was her birthday today and we had plans to have a family dinner. I talked to her in the morning. Then I called her all day and she didn't answer the phone. It really pissed me off because I was really excited to give her the gift I got her and I had cancelled some important plans I already had... Oh well I guess. This just proved to me that I did make the right decision of leaving and keeping her out of my life for the most part.

Finally found the shoes I have been looking for for what feels like forever. Pointy toed black patten leather flats. I've wanted these since Krista wore them to school like 6 months ago.

Tiffany finally got in touch with me. She sent me a text saying she has a bottle of Jack Danielles. haha.

Got a new celly today also.

this entry was way too long.

i hope i never figure out who broke your heart.

2006-09-12T23:34:52Z

i have writers block.

drink up, baby, stay up all night
the things you could do, you won't but you might
the potential you'll be, that you'll never see
the promises you'll only make
drink up with me now and forget all about the pressure of days
do what I say and I'll make you okay and drive them away
the images stuck in your head
people you've been before that you don't want around anymore
that push and shove and won't bend to your will
I'll keep them still
drink up, baby, look at the stars
I'll kiss you again between the bars where I'm seeing you
there with your hands in the air, waiting to finally be caught
drink up one more time and I'll make you mine
keep you apart deep in my heart separate from the rest
where I like you the best and keep the things you forgot
the people you've been before that you don't want around anymore
that push and shove and won't bend to your will
I'll keep them still.

playing hide and seek with the ghost of dawn.

2006-09-05T20:23:59Z

when you grow up, your heart dies.

2006-08-26T10:50:57Z

im the one in the blue striped pajamas.
i miss my childhood.
i miss my cousins.

i love my drunk friends.

2006-08-12T07:28:18Z

bright lights

2006-08-10T07:57:37Z

everything i have to look foward to has a pretty painful and very imposing before.

2006-07-29T23:50:11Z

im gonna sleep all through the day.
im gonna sleep my life away.

i miss my little baby.

... its bound to melt your heart.

2006-07-22T02:43:37Z

When you're kissing someone who's too much like you,
it's like kissing on the mirror.
When you're sleeping with someone who doesn't get you,
you're going to hate yourself in the morning.

It's bound to melt your heart,
one way or another.

what if i told you i was in love with this?

2006-07-13T04:54:34Z

"the kiss of death"
edvard munch

he didn't even say goodbye. he didn't take the time to lie.

2006-07-09T01:40:49Z

pink clouds.
i took this while i was getting my ipod from the car.
the stupid light on top of the roof ruins it.

Your sorry eyes cut through the bone, They make it hard to leave you alone.

2006-07-08T02:07:40Z

I miss San Francisco.
I want to go back soon.

we're causing accidents. me and you.

2006-07-07T17:20:18Z

i love when the sky is like this.

old polaroid.

2006-07-07T11:21:44Z

drunk/high.

akillerswife @ 2006-07-07T04:12:00

2006-07-07T11:13:28Z

my school days.

Trial By Separation

2005-07-21T03:47:27Z

when we first met, i was alone, and so were you. when we first touched, i was alone, and so were you. when we first fucked, i was alone, and so were you. you have deserted me. i am alone, and so are you.

Noi

2005-07-05T23:29:54Z

Nihilism is the belief that all values are baseless and that nothing can be known or communicated. It is often associated with extreme pessimism and a radical skepticism that condemns existence. A true nihilist would believe in nothing, have no loyalties, and no purpose other than, perhaps, an impulse to destroy.

only death.

2005-06-03T02:05:35Z

there is only death. no god, no love, no joy, only death, and the fear of it.

in the river we will go.

2005-02-16T05:20:49Z

A - age: 18
B - band listening to right now: mogwai
C - crush: johnny depp
D - dad's name: herman
E - easiest person to talk to: no one
F - favorite band at the moment: kashmir
G - gummy bears or gummy worms: gummy bears (only red ones)
H - hometown: oxnard, ca!
I - instruments: 0 .
K - kids: i wanna adopt a baby from china.
L - longest car ride ever: san francisco
M - mom's name: roberta
N - number of siblings: 2 half sisters, 2 half brothers
O - one wish: everyone would become a vegitarian
P - phobia[s]: airplanes, snakes, drowning
Q - favorite quote: "god is nothing more than an obsessive lie"
R - reason to smile: none
S - song you sang last: "haiti" - the arcade fire
T - time you wake up: today: 12:00, when danielle called me to hang out
U - unknown fact about me: i really like kylie minogue
V - vegetable you hate: i love them all
W - worst habit(s) you've had: lack of motivation, biting nails, paranoia, insomnia.
X - x-rays you've had: whole body?
Y - yummy food: SUSHI
Z - zodiac sign: aries

I Believe In Outer Space

2004-09-19T01:36:53Z